Of sexual innuendos & flirting

So here I am, blogging from my trusty old PC . It has a strange sense of nostalgia to be typing away in this room. Partly cos I spent a majority of my secondary school + ITE days blogging on this very PC & going on MSN .

I wonder what happened to MSN.

Anyways, I've come to some realization that some people are uncomfortable with me . More like uncomfortable with my pervy jokes and my apparent flirting .

"BUT YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND" *GASP*

Thanks for reminding me . I am very aware of his existence.

What people need to do is to take the damn chill pill.

Chill la, I'm not flirting with you. It's the way I talk. If it's considered flirting, then, I must be flirting with other girls/your mother/your father/your brother/your sister too . Okay, maybe some things sounds very sexual /has double meaning . But it's not MY fault you have a dirty mind!

Really what.

And you blame me for being flirty and all , when in fact you are just a disgusting chee ko pek!

There is also another special  group of people who gets easily offended by what I say / do.

My opinion ? These people need to get the stick out of their ass.

I have nothing more to say about them , cos  honestly? Really? Like very recently, someone got upset cos I decided to pose at a football field wearing my Baju Kurung. Apparently it's distasteful . (I actually found it to be ridiculously funny to be honest)

Okaycan.

I am very lucky to not have these many people in my life - just a small handful. So it's still very tolerable la !

OKAYOUT

Tired

God I'm so tired . Today was only a 6 hours shift & I feel half dead.

To think that I used to do 9 hours shift on almost a daily basis.

I have grown weak.

Here's a question

"If you were to lose an item at a store, is it the employee's fault?"

Obviously no right? Some people deserved to be smacked across the face with a brick.

I've been craving for some delicious buffalo wings & I've yet to eat any . Oh gods, can you imagine - Buffalo wings & Hot Truffle Fries? OH AND SAUSAGES .

The truffle fries from Skinny Pizza & the sausages are to die for. DIE FOR . I've been having so much cravings it's retarded.

Think my vagina's gonna vomit blood soon.

It's been awhile

It's been a long time since I last blogged ; god knows it probably has been a year .

I've been busy with loads of things - mostly school and my personal stuff . It's been one heck of a roller coaster ride since the last time I blogged - but things are mostly on the positive side right now . So I am very grateful (:

I realized that my blog is fast becoming an old friend . Someone who I may not stay in contact with for a long while but when I do , I have many things to say .

Anyways , I actually do have many things to say tonight . My insomnia is acting up and my brain is kinda going into overdrive  .

I've been thinking about a lot of things of late and these thoughts has brought me to more questions . And of course not having answers always frustrates me . I've been thinking about certain people , questioning why I feel certain way towards them  . Just generally questioning my feelings . Right now I need to sift through these feelings .

And perhaps I might blog about it when I feel like I know the answer .

On another note , I just want to say that I won't change the way I am for anyone .
And I realized that the person I am may not appeal to everyone , but that is just me .

The sad part is that I'm beginning to question myself if its even worth it to keep to my conviction .

Here comes all the unwanted questions

Oh well .

Off To The Races

Slut Anthem (;

FTPA

This. Right now.

Purge

A sappy post

You know what a perfect day would be?

A perfect day would be when neither of us have school or work and we have the whole day to ourselves. We would get our lazy ass (I know you'll blame me) up before 1 and head down for a good breakfast other than Macdonalds.

I'll order something that involves Salmon and you'll stare at your menu and order something you won't finish cos you drank too much coffee and you feel like shitting afterwards. But that's okay cos it's a perfect day.

We would catch a bus home and we'll open the windows and let the sun in. I'll have a fantastic book to read where you'll just start playing Minecraft. And when we both are bored it'll be late afternoon . I'll suggest cooking something and you'll agree and we'll get our ass to Cold Storage to buy stuff . We'll make dinner according to Cooking With Dog and you'll annoy me cos you wanna cook, but the only thing you will actually do is just stirring the ingredients or frying stuff whilst whining about the oil.

You'll give up halfway cos I gotten pissed at you for either spilling things or not following instructions and you'll go back to your Minecraft. Dinner would be exactly when my mom reaches home but she won't dare to eat what we cook cos she's sensible like that.

We'll probably fight over what movie to torrent afterwards and will end up watching something that you scanned on Rotten Tomatoes. And then when the movie is over , you'll lie down next to me in bed , and in the dark I can only make out your nose. We'll talk about everything and nothing at the same time and I'll trace your face with my fingers and you'll just smile.

And when the clock strikes 12, we'll both be dead asleep cos a perfect day will only last 24 hours. And the next day will be our cycle into hell again.

Nostalgia

I was on Reddit today and saw a post on things that makes you feel nostalgic and it got me thinking of mine ;

Smell of new books & plastic covers -always remind me of the times we buy new school books for primary / secondary school . It was so fun to put on the plastic sleeves onto the exercise books.

How my mom used to arrange the eggs and sausages for breakfast to form smiley faces .

Elizabeth Arden's Green Tea will never fail to remind me of my mother - that was her longest scent before she switched.

Manchester United - oddly enough since I have 0 interest in European soccer . My dads a huge fan and whenever I see a pakcik wearing Man U shirts I will always be reminded of him . ( You also can tell he's a douche by the team he supports)

The Hungry Caterpillar - It was the first book I remember being tortured to read , followed by Peter & The Wolf , Heidi . Lol old school sia

Which brings to the last one for tonight-

Apo?/ Gila- Gila magazines . I literally grew up reading that cos both my maternal and paternal grandparents houses were stocked to the brim with them .

I miss my childhood . I miss that innocence . I'd do anything to go back to when we were a family , but I am also glad we turned out the way we did . I wouldn't have gone this far and gotten this strong .

I miss you Ayah.

Well sorta .

Meet Real Asian Women

So............

Meet Real Asian Women?

Is it the photo highlight or is it what I think it is ?  LOL

Who da fuq is actually attracted to these kind of advertisements? Okay. Enough.

On a brighter note, I can finally eat solids without shitting myself and /or vomiting. It's been a tough weekend for me but I am glad I can keep my food down. But I'm MAFARKING HUNGRY LEH. 

On a not so brighter note ; school is starting tomorrow and I'm suffering from horrible headaches. 

You can't have everything right?

YOLO

That liberating feeling when you realize that

 "If they don't love you for who you are, FUCK THEM."

Yes I'm whiny, noisy, annoying. Yes I have many guy friends. Yes I wear clothes like "tak cukup kain" . Yes I like to hug/touch people . Yes I swear a lot . Yes I am flawed/ I'm not ladylike and I'm (_____insert every negative comment_______) .

But you're not bringing me to meet your mother, so why judge? 

So to those who feel like you need to conform to have others like you, to be more popular etc etc , there's no need for that.

Why should you? You've been that same old you , long before you met these people anyways. If they can't accept how you live your life or how you do things - then they should be the one to fuck off , not you.

So be yourself, run around naked, dance in the moonlight, swear like a sailor cos as long as you're happy , nothing else matters .

Fuck you, YOLO . HAHAHAH. No.




xx

Come home soon

Missing you so damn much :( Screw the stupid Internet connection over there . Can't wait to have you back .

xx

Thursday

I think I ran out of zombie movies to watch . Officially the Queen of Zombie movies . Or not .

Seriously tho , watched most of them except the vintage ones . Am excited to watch Rec 3 tho, it's becoming more like Resident Evil . The more movies being produced , the more sci-fi it becomes .

In other words : L-A-M-E

I thought I'd have time to read during this holidays .... Boy am I wrong . Overall I've been a good girl throughout . Didn't do anything particularly stupid . It's either home or work & the occasional outing .

Compared to earlier this year , these past 2 or so months are relatively tame.

AND I'M DYING OUT OF BOREDOM CAN??!

Seriously , I'm so bored, watching my mother's malay drama series seems a lot appealing . It's not like I lead a hardcore lifestyle , but my social life has come to a damn standstill .

Pathetic la . I wanna cry :(

I've not done anything memorable these past months. To think of it , the most exciting thing that happened was going for the interview . Lol

I FEEL SO RESTLESS / IRRITATED / BORED / UNHAPPY /

I need people to rescue me , fill my remaining days before school starts . It's just this phase , the temporary feeling that I get . I call it the "Once in a blue moon " itch - where you wanna do something crazy fun .

And when you're done , it doesn't matter if you didn't leave home for the next 5 months .



xx

Somebody To Love Me

I feel like I am still finding myself & that perhaps we may never know what we really want. It's hard to be happy with what you have. The grass is always greener on the other side. 

There's always decision to be made, sacrifices, all the things a responsible person must do. I just want to run away. Go far away meet new people , leave the old ones behind and keep repeating this process. And when I feel that I have enough, I'll come home.

2 days

I am feeling incredibly lazy . It's been 2 days have I slept properly in my own bed , i.e : 2 nights of thonning session. So damn tired but so worth it.

So tomorrow, filming and the sexco. Fun time for sureeeeee , missing everybody .

Before 20

Before electronic club songs were the norm , I used to listen to loads of rock growing up. I think during my impressionable age of 11-14 years (lol) I discovered a lot of great bands that I loved and supported even til now  ( Sum41 , Linkin Park, Slipknot ) .  And when I went to secondary school, I was exposed to other genre and subsequently more songs to listen to! (BFMV , A7X, Saosin)

So here's a playlist of the songs that I used to listen to . There are many more but I can't add them on the playlist , so this comes close. Creating the playlist has brought back memories . THOSE WE THE DAYS YEA?

LAST NIGHT

So Freddy's back !!!

The laptop people pimped him out yo! What used to be icky black plastic keys, are now replaced by new shiny metallic ones . I can imagine the amount of noise it'll make when I grow out my nails again.

Other than that, it's soo good to have him back again. It's been 3 weeks without him, I missed out on my GTA , and series. Did I mention that the new keys are so yum to touch and type on? I'm just worried that it'll scratch / rust.  But it feels like a ton have been added on. Or mebbe cos I haven't carried him in a million years, and hence forgot how heavy he is. But it's sooooooo damn good to be able to type properly again.

On another note, I've been crazy busy with work that I'm beginning to feel like I'm working full-time. I've worked a whopping 107 hours for the month of September and it feels like a breeze. School is starting soon tho and there's a lot of shit to cover , so let's see how it goes.

Thanks to the 107 hours, my social life is... Non existent ! I won't even get the chance to go for Van's POP this Sat cos I'll be doing crazy 8- 1 shift. I've only managed to go out like 3/4 times this holidays? And I was only lucky to meet XD through prior planning. Think 2 weeks advanced planning. And as for Shah, I actually have to keep waiting til we have the same free day for me to go over .

Major WTF right?

Hopefully next week would be a lot more "lenient" cos it'll be major sad if I have to spent the last weeks of my holidays working :(


xxx

Dog Days

I've found friends in the most unlikeliest places . Never thought that work would be fun , but fun it is .

Love on T.O.P

SELAMAT BELATED HARI RAYA Y'ALL

Hopefully the Hari Raya hols has been eventful! I had a wonderful Raya spending it with my family and hopefully next week, with my friends *kecoh kecoh raya!* 

So very recently I've been listening to Big Bang and I think I found my soulmate. 

Call me late/slow/poser/groupie whatever but DAMNNNNNNN this guy, really cannot.

I CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT TANK. 

Too yum. Hahaha I'm sure I'm not the only one out there but really.. JUST LOOK AT HIM! 

There's just something about tall guys with deep voice and manly , chiselled face. I've been spending the past 4 days listening to Big Bang and watching their variety shows and music videos and I have been  CHOISEUNGHYUNIIZED!  .  

Unfortunately I've become a fan slightly too late (and too poor to boot) to only now realize that Big Bang would be in Singapore in September :( Too late , too poor :(

On the bright side, I'm looking forward to an wonderful relaxing week ahead . I have planned to do a lot of stress-free activities next week (namely GTA ,Minecraft & More reading) on top of the raya visits and I really am stoked for the last of the papers tomorrow.

THEN IT'S FREEDOM BABY!

So many things to do, so many people to meet. So much food to eat! It would be even better if I could go overseas instead. Let's say Perth? 

Alright, that's about it. 

xx

Raya Rant

So very recently I've been invited to dinners/ reunions by people from the past . It's very interesting how this pattern develops every single year.

As soon as it's near Hari Raya , everyone gets together to "meet up and rebuilt relationship"

Sorry , but I find that to be utter BS. Why the heck do you have to wait for Raya to rekindle whatever relationship you had ?

You had an entire year and you only chose that particular month/ day to meet people who had lost contact with you for the past 11 months .

It's like doing a head count to check that "so and so" is alive and well.
(I.e: not pregnant , no shot gun marriage , not in prison and has all their limbs attached ) 

I know it's supposed to be a joyous month/ occasion but what's the point of only meeting up that month/day and then losing contact all over again ?

Needless to say , I'm not going for any . If I want to meet up with you , I'll let you know personally . Thank you very nice .

But the funniest thing is that , I'm getting invited by :

 1) People I never talk to 

2) People who had back stabbed me / treated me like shit.

"Just because it's Raya , it doesn't automatically make you my friend ."

And just because  its a month for forgiveness , doesn't mean that everyone will automatically forgive you . Puh-lease , some people are not that gracious/ kind/ benevolent to forgive that easily . Or forget for that matter.

(If you're the kind that is quick to forgive , good for you ! The world needs more of your type .)

I know this post sounds real bitchy but I think that the only reason why people agree to meet up is not to reminisce good times but out of pure kaypohness. 

And that, drives me absolutely nuts .