Subdued.

Emo again.

It’s really tiring to be emo. But yea, I feel like everything kinda been rather weird..?I feel pretty much awkward and my poor brain feels like it has been abused like a million over time. There’s nothing I love to do more then curling up into a ball and go to sleep. Unfortunately you can’t sleep forever. Unless you’re dead.

Gaah.

I think I’m thinking too much. Maybe I’m too nice? I don’t know. I don’t wanna play the poor emo victim. Yet I don’t wanna be the villain. I hate snapping at people and feeling crabby everyday and I absolutely hate being all defensive. I don’t even know what’s going on with me! Like : HELLO? I feel like I’m not in my own body!! Bleaaaargh.

And I’ve got this weird urge to go and visit Yishun again. The last time I’ve been there was during the NCO camp. And that was like .. Half a year ago? It’s not that difficult to get there. Just take a bloody loooong bus ride and : Voila! I’ll reach there. I wonder how things have changed. Seriously it feels like home, yet it’s still so strange .I remember the mosque of which I used to go when I was younger. The Shell station near block 150, the Yamaha music store and the community center. The Nee Soon market of which I used to buy sailormoon bags (yesss lame!) Northpoint!! YEA NORTHPOINT! My dad use to bring me there to buy strawberry milkshake! :D

I remember avoiding the community centre during the evenings, for fear of being pelted by birdshit.! Hahahs weird I know, and somehow, further on the OTHER side of Yishun there’s the library, ANOTHER community centre which brings back memories..., the market, my dad’s house. Very damn isolated (me think cos I practically live by the roadside ((:) I remember that it’s near the reservoir and some weird park which you can go jogging at. I miss that place. I really do..

ANYWAYS.. I'm planning to go back this Sat(: And I've asked Iman along.. I hope I won't be too much of a burden to him. Like wasting his Sat only..!! Arrgh soooo sorry arr but like what Shah said .. I need to take a break and do some soul-searching..Or whatever that means..


Taaaa!!

And home will never feel like home, til the heart is in it...